for you so that

continued from Week 46

Letting the re-reading of my journals be how I remember accurately all God has done for us and then intentionally writing here, I’m at a place where for the past few months, the writing has been about the financial pressure we felt associated with Ryan’s business and my work being sales based. On it goes…

Journal Entry Monday, August 12 There’s still so much swirling around. I’ve been praying for Ryan and myself that we allow You to show us what is straight ahead. Jesus, fix our eyes on it, and on You being here with and for us. Mark out for us Your straight path and may we, by Your power, stay on it. Do not let us be side tracked. Proverbs 4:25-26. We know we are not alone. As days have passed Ryan sees where he is with the business and that the train is not on the track. Lord, I am submitting to him and I honor him by supporting the non-typical harder path decision to let go of the dead weight, which means dropping paying clients. What is my role in helping him with the business? What does this look like for our family? Will it build cohesiveness? While we are under attack because of this change, let us feel You close and return to Ryan his servant and teaching spirit. Protect us and the vision You have given us.

How, how, how do we get out of debt? It is a trap! What do You want us to do here? I choose to praise You! Thank you for Your gift of assurance in “we can gather our thoughts, but You, our LORD give the right answer” Proverbs 16:1. Peace is ours because we know You give answers, You have and You will…Thank You! What’s better yet is You not only will give us answers but You give the right answer. You will keep us, with peace, on the narrow road of Your perfect and pleasing path. I surrender.

“Commit your work to the LORD and then your plans will succeed” Proverbs 16:3.

You have, now stand Karah.

“We can make our plans but the LORD determines our steps” Proverbs 16:9. 

We just need to be still and quiet enough to know! Jesus, may it be so ❤️ 

All in all my continued plea was for sustaining peace and patience knowing “We can gather our thoughts, but the LORD gives the right answer” Proverbs 16:1.

A week later we officially launched into homeschooling for the school year of 2013-2014 and a week after that we joined an intentional marriage group (which was affirmed when I wrote out my living-list followed by the fast experience). Having both homeschooling and the marriage group start were amazing; they both served as tremendous gifts in this year of “community.” Living a year with a word made it so I had an increased awareness of references and opportunities associated with that word. During my daily reading I’d circle and pause as I came across or were given references to it. In times of journaling my heart’s thoughts and prayers I found I would occasionally ask for more understanding but most often I would give thanks for having been given so much goodness through what was given, in this case our new community.

to be continued…